Insomniac Rants

It's getting bad again. And by bad again I mean the thoughts, worthlessness, views and whatever else you can think of. I'm still on my meds. But I don't know what triggers these random stages where it's just total shit. Where I truly believe that I have absolutely no worth in this world and that no one would miss me if I died tomorrow. People say of course they would. But I really don't believe it. I'm just a fat, useless, non important, stupid girl. Yet everyone else sees a beautiful, skinny, funny , caring, intelligent girl. They're fucking blind in my opinion. But that's just me. And what do I know?